This is PTB.

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I figured starting a journal of my every day boring ass life would help, but I doubt it.

I was born on January 5th, 1984 in Los Angeles California. My mom is a great person, my dad can F*CK OFF AND DIE!! he left when I was about three months or so and Id like to rip him apart limb by limb while siphoning his blood out slowly burning his eyes with cigarettes and putting glass under his fingernails. Anyway, Ive grown up in this city called Redlands. Been here for about 15 years. Nice little town I call home. I know to many people though, can be a very bad thing.

Well, just when my life started getting interesting, which was around when I was about 15... I had a son. Yea I know, Ive heard it all before, "your too young, blah blah" STFU!!!!!!
Anyway, he's 3 years old now his name is Kade, he just started pre-school... or day care, or whatever the hell they call it.. pre-pre-school I dunno. I Love him to death.
BUT! his mother and her mom are a completely different story. I could do the rest of my life without even knowing these people exist. All Ill say is that DONT EVER DO SPEED! yea. Its horrible.

Here I am, no job cause I got laid off construction. Im trying to find a new one but it isnt so easy. I refuse to work at any such place as McDonalds or Del Taco. Forget min wage, which is 6.75.

So Im in search of work, have a loving mother(at least I think so), I have a son thats three and I love him to death, and Im running out of money. Oh yea, I have a girlfreind to, her names Adriana and dont worry shes on birth control. I make sure of that.

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Today started off good: woke up, played some Vice City for about an hour. Took a shower, decided to take my girlfreind to a couple places. Then I came back home...

Not even five minutes go by. My freind Randy's Dad comes to drop me a visit. I havent seen him for like a year, and Randy is in Jail for I dunno what dumb shit. Anyway, we get to talking about some weird stuff, something about mushrooms and how he has like 10 pounds. I didnt really beleive a word he said but after the convo we went to the store to get some beer. Heres where things start getting interesting...
We get back to my place and he sits on the porch with the beer and I set my keys down. I come inside to talk to my girlfreind for about two minutes and I go back outside. I see him twitching his leg like he was nervous or something but I didnt really care at this point. We sit and talk for awhile then I notice some little kid messing with my keys. I get the kid away from my keys and I go pick them up to see if they are all there.... What do you know... ones missing!!!!!!! I track down that little kid and ask him if he took my key. The kid didnt know wtf I was talking about so I figured it must of fell of or something. BTW, this key is the ignition to my car. Anyway, I get back to porch, confused about what the hell could of happened to my key. Then I start thinking....
(Theres no way this kid could of taken the key because he would of had to undo it off the keyring before I saw him.) then BAM it hits me. THIS MOTHER F*CKER IS TRYING TO STEAL MY CAR! I stay chill for awhile trying to think of some other explanation because this is my freinds dad of course, but then I look down in his pocket ... and guess what I could see. "WTF IS THAT?!?!" he looks down at his pocket, reaches in and pulls out some paper, and a little money. Im like no WTF, reach inside his pocket and grab my key.. hes like "HEY WHAT ARE YOU DOING!" and I pull out my key then I flip.
"WTF YOU ^&&* ^&(*^& &*^ &*(^&*(, YOUR TRYING TO STEAL MY CAR!!??!??!?"
He says "no, I was just trying to teach you a lesson, not to leave your keys out in the open."
He was trying to play it off like I dont know wtf was going on!!!!!! Im like "THATS F*CKING BULLSHIT, YOUR TRYING TO STEAL MY CAR!" .. other end .. "Josh you know me, I would never do such a thing."
"I dont know you, Ive grown up not to trust anyone." (specially those who do speed, which hes known for)..... then theres a long pause, while Im sitting here getting more and more heated over the situation. There were all these little kids around, and Ive had my arrested days, so I do the MOST NICE DAMNED THING I think I could do.
I tell him to get the F! out of here, and I never wanna see you again or this will come back to bite your in the mother F'ing teeth. I know theres lots of cussing but you must realize how raged I was. He left, thank god or I would of given those kids something they wouldnt of forgotten.

I think back and regret not giving this guy a new asshole to shit out of but then I think of legal matters. and I really dont need any more of those. I like to think what I did was the "right thing."

Well later on I decided to go out, blow some steam. Drive around in MY CAR and get a haircut.

I go to the bank to get some money out. While backing up I stop, I see this car coming strait for me and like that, the guy backs up into me. I get out calmly, look at my car, look at his car. Nothings wrong. We talk, everything cool there, everything cool here, k bye. Never wanna see you again.

So that was my fun full day. I Got in a minor accident, and had some tweaker try and steal my car. But I did get a haircut and I did get nicely laid, AND I have a good weekend to look forward to at the beach in Oceanside. Waves and tans here I come.... I need it.

Official smilie for this post: :boom: :boom: :boom:

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I come to realize after reading my last post, that I cant write dialog for shit. Forgive me, english wasnt my favorite subject.

The day started off normal, although I didnt want to get up at all untill about 1:30 pm. whoooo. I played a lil VC and then took a shower. I picked up my GF and we sat and watched TV for awhile
then my freind Shawn and his GF came over with a 30 pack of Tecate. I havent had this stuff since I was like 12 ;) anyway it was free so we didnt care much.
After watching "Not another Teen movie" which wasnt all that great but somewhat funny, and "Sorority Boys" which was all-n-all the same, we played some pool and drank for awhile.
Shawn and his GF started getting into an argument about something and he decided to take her home. About twenty minutes go by and shawns gf calls blabbing about how they argued and how shawn said "the last words" before he left. Which happened to be the the last words her father told her before he commited suicide. So she continued on about how she thought hes gonna commit suicide and Im trying to calm her down telling her he was on his way back to my place. Which was originally the plan. Comes to about an hour later and he hasnt shown up. What the hell is going on here?. Hopefully he shows up... :crap:

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Shawn ended up going back to his girlfriends house the other night. He just went to get oil and water for his car at 2 in the morning. Jackass.

Anyway, I had a long drunken weekend. It was great.

Started off going to Mexico for Shawns birthday on Saturday. The only plan we had was to get severly shitfaced, and later on that night it came severly true. I came back over the boarder with no money, two broken knuckles, a black eye, and lumps all over my head. WTF happened? leave that to four beligerently drunk people. Had fun though for sure, we didnt get back home till about 7 in the morning stumbling through the door.
We planned on going back in about a month.

Advice to everyone... Dont take your girlfreinds to Mexico!

The next day we woke up at about 2:30pm. Decided to go down to the beach to wake up and get rid of our slight hangovers/headaches. The water was cold as hell. Surely woke us all up tho. We came back to shawns place and jumped in the spa to warm up and drink a few beers.
We then went to get some mexican food and then came all the way back to my house cause Shawn had to work.
Got a little buzz and watched Kung Pow:Enter the Fist, Comical movie. Then me and my GF passed the F out.

Ive had enough Mexico for awhile.
Ive been in Mexico, drinking Mexican beer/drinks, and eating mexican food all weekend. I think its time to get back into American life. Being in Mexico made me realize just how good we got it here in America.

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I havent been doing much lately, hence why I havent been posting any entrys in this journal. Ive been taking care of my gf cause shes having some hardcore family problems. And what better way to do it...
Went to a sex shop earlier and got some weird edible gel. You can all guess what thats for. Its called "Good Head." Havent tried it out yet. She had to go early tonight.

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Went to go see The Ring today at about 10:20pm. Great time for scary movies. This one was some crazy shit! Definately a must see for everyone. Had to take my GF home after the show, I felt sorry for her cause she was pretty scared. I had to walk her inside and up to her room and all. She gets scared pretty easily obviously. She was jumpin throughout the whole movie.

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Rented Contra: SS today. After only an hour of playing this game I know its going to take me way more then five days to beat this one. Its hard as all hell. Good game though, I see myself stuck in front of this game until monday, when I go searching for a job once again.

Nothing new in any part of my life. Same ol boring ass shit.

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I went down to the Marines today to sign up. I took a practice ASVAB tes and passed with flying colors. I figured it was time to get my life together, and what better way to do it then The Marines.

I go back on Monday to get my records sealed/closed and to get a physical. Im really looking forward to this.

Thats all for now, back to getting my ass kicked in Contra.

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I started working out because I know Im going to need it when I go to boot camp in January. I started off running, then played some football. Im out of shape so that was for good enough for one day.

Im going to workout my upper body today, then switch back to the legs tomorrow.

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As if anyone gives a shit about what I do, but today is my final test. My final determination of whether or not I become a United States Marine.

I leave at 0300(already thinking military time) shit. Anyway I leave at 3 in the morning and wont be back untill around 9-10.

Im pumped the f*ck up!!!!!!!

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I didnt get any sleep at all last night, Ive been up for two days and am exhausted as all hell.

The tests' went great, I passed everything they threw at me. From blood tests, to physicals, to nuts and butts tests. I have overcome. I am now offically IN the United States Marine Corps.

I have yet to earn the title of a U.S. Marine and will do so this coming Febuary where Ill be sent to So. Carolina. Damn right Im proud, Im doing what others cant.

I swore unto othe and signed an 8 year contract starting immediatly.
HOORAH! Semper Fi.

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Its Thanksgiving, I ate a hell of a lot today.

Ive been trying to tame these sore muscle for about two days now. They wont seem to relax so Ive been taking IBProfin(sp?) and taking dips in the spa once and awhile.

Ive been trying to keep a daily workout reutine, taking my tense muscles as far as they will let me without pulling anything. Just some sit-ups, push-ups, pull-ups, bicep-curls, and some walking/jogging. Nothing major at the moment.

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I changed the Title of my Journal simply because my life isnt so screwed up any more.

Im enjoying my life at the moment and Im feeling quite good about myself and what I chose to do.

More on me later. ;)

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Been awhile...

Ive been talking with my recruiter, and it looks like my MOS is going to be MotorT.
While they are down there figuring that out, and when a job will be available Im out here working my ass off to become a Marine.

Ive up'd my workout routine, its not so basic any more. I go to the gym now and run 1.5-2 miles along with working out almost every part of my body for about 2 hours every day. Sometimes 3 depending on how much energy I have left. In about one-two more weeks I think Im going to start focusing on certain parts of my body a day, and work out for about 1.5 hours. For once in a long time I can feel myself getting into better shape. Im starting to build some definition, as with strength.

Im planning on retiring a Marine. Instead of the normal 65 years, Ill be able to retire when Im 38 and never have to work again, if thats what I choose to do. I may just stay in untill I decide its a good time, either way. Sounds damn good to me.

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Im going crazy, having a girlfreind right now is driving me f*cking mad. Its not even that we arent getting along very well right now, shes over "talking" with one of her "old freinds" at his house. I dont know whether to kill the bitch now or later. Oh well, they come and go I guess... plenty of other sluts in the playing field.

Anway, I think Ive decided to buy my mom a DVD player for Christmas. I havent gotten around to figuring out what Im gonna get for my brother and my grandma. I dont even think Im gonna get something for the so-called girlfreind, I dont know if Im gonna wait that long to dump the slut.

Im sitting here anxious to go out and do something but its thursday night and theres nothing to do. I have to do something, get my head to shut the f*ck up.


EDIT: K well about ten minutes have gone by and I have come to realize this girl isnt worth the head trip. She just better hope I dont find out if they really are doing any thing. Ill tear out his balls and feed them to his mother. Thats all for now.

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I've been a busy man. Im working my ass off. It is severly noticable that I have built definition and strength. Its great. I have been working especially hard this week, sometimes two times a day. I have to either cut back drastically or dont workout at all for the next two days. I have to prepare my muscles and rest them for saturday, I am taking my IST(Initial Strength Test.)

Im feeling damn good about myself and am now spreading it to my freinds. I got them off their pothead asses. Some I got pumped to join The Marines, in which I will be promoted to PFC (Private First Class) before I even go to bootcamp if two actually enlist.

On a different note:
I bought my mom her DVD player for Christmas, but I have no wrap to cover it up. I just threw it in my closet hoping she wont find it, and if she does she'll just think its another empty box and not f*ck with it.
Im down to my last dollars. Christmas has swept me dry. Oh well, Its all in good.

My girlfreind is making me wonder. She talks about going over to her "old freinds" house almost every day. I dont get paranoid or anything but wtf does that mean? Is she just f*cking with my heador what? Shes spent the last three nights with me so I dont what the hell. (any ideas Rya? ;))

UPDATE: On a new note, The Unsignificant Other has stated she has just been messing with my head(figures) :rolleyes:

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I lost my ISP awhile ago and am now trying to find another one. Im on my Girlfreinds computer right now so Ill update this journal extensively later. I might even have to settle for Wal-mart Connect untill I can get my hands on something better. :crap: Oh-well. I dont need anything special anyway.